Karma full circle?

Man, I don't know what to say but....

I've gone on a string of bad dates and have gotten a string of bad circumstances (bout 4-5 odd) lately like being completely knocked back with some advances, It's fucked with me because it never really happened. This is like my days of debilitating lows back in the day.

I didn't really care about the last few but recently I let myself get fully infatuated with the latest girl she was absolutely gawjus and I was genuinely struck which I haven't been in a long time. It was actualy going well and I thought she was on the same page and we where both looking for a relationship, we ended up phone sexing on our second phone convo which is good because that means my sms game is pretty slick but anyways it kinda went pear shape and it was crazy it was like we went into some sort of boyfriend/girlfriend seriousness without having actually met up once again; the texts would go on throughout the whole day. When we actually did meet up again I guess the craziness wasn't there as much as in our phone chats and text and unfortunately it didn't go as cool. Or maybe she thought I was butt ugly or maybe it was the gay friend she brought along to keep her company.:D

I'll look on the bright side though, she did catch a bus to my place after only knowing me for a week did I mention the phone sex on the third day of talking? Second phone call yo. I'll definately have to look into bringing this more into my face to face. On with the story;

Anyways eventually it has lead to me hounding her a touch too much where she ain't picking up (3 calls to be exact and 2 messages). I did rest it for like two days before then after recieving a random drunk call from her gay friend (Yes she was in the same room with him). Scary thing is I actually contemplate on sending more texts on another day and I still think I have a chance and I plan on chasing her. I know "Oh shit" .

Well I want her and we'll see what happens....

Let's document it :D Here is the last message I sent.

"Ah c'mon dearest, don't go quiet, u too nice too let get away, jus wantin to be cool n talk in ya ear say sweet nuttins make ya smile or sumthin u know,=)"

Here's hoping she's reading it in my usual confident tone :/

I'm morbidly interested to see how this goes and cocky enough to think this will work.

I've been recently working on the self worth and my head is pretty nicely balloned despite the consecutive bad predicaments. You can't help but feeling down but I've implemented a "Rightio It's time to get ridiculously hot plan."

Kinda keeping me breathing despite all the lows of love pangs and I actually do feel fucking hotter and flirted nicely with my dental receptionist, I didn't close because of the feelings I had for the other girl.

One thing being ignored after having a couple wonderful convo's isn't cool. I feel bad for the girls in the past I've bailed on after belt notching like a mother fucker talking all this smooth shit, fucking and then rolling, perhaps it's karma that the girl I really like does it to me... except their wasn't any real fucking, just a phone jerk weak:( I know for sure I'm not going to be a coward like that again anyways will keep you updated on potential triumph or disaster.

Here's betting for triumph. :D Down for the serious mental reprecussions of this, will not be afraid nor care what anyone thinks.

Will keep you updated. :)