-Didn't approach again but I was in the shopping centre and in my defence a harder venue than club game in my opinion however these are probably more excuses than anything. In fact they are, I did see three occasions where I should of stepped up though one set had real actual talent in it though, the other two I copped looks anyway have to state that before I went walking through the shops my anxiety was firing through the roof, my pits are drenched and I was sweating majorly I did like how I pressed on however and even slowed my walking and just let the feelings consume me because I know that I shouldn't let these feelings govern my way of life, right now I put up with them and I have no choice because they'll probably never go away. Can't and won't let my disorder stop me from going out in public still not approaching though however I'm determined to get this handled anyway in other news had a major fight with the ex-girlfriend, we are both trying to be civil and stay friends. She didn't like it when I told her about the small details of the way a girl I was seeing laughs. I guess deep down I was trying to push buttons but she’s seeing someone else also so I guess she has some feelings for me and I for her, she did accuse me of being fake which got to me, but I'm trying to make my life better but still didn't like my new found confidence, if we can call it that (dam maybe she is getting to me) "Aah the games we play"
zibbolo
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